My name is Sam and I have been battling with my mind for 7 years now. I have decided to start a blog in hope that if only one of you can relate/feel comforted or simply use as a distraction technique (one for my fellow CBTers) then baring my very fragile mind to you all will be more than worthwhile.
A standard yet utterly terrifying first migraine in November 2009 set my life into a before/after from which my life has never been the same. Health anxiety landed well and truly at my front door that day and has continued as an unwelcome guest since. I will not lie and say I have learned to live with anxiety because I havnt as of yet, when I am in a the darkest of corners and anxiety totally consumes every part of my being i am more than aware that this is something that is a part of who i am now. Hopefully one day we can learn to live if with a little compromise with each other.
I don't want to appear all doom and gloom, as a mother of 2 and on the right side of 30 (just) i have lots in my life I am grateful for. What I'm really trying to say is im just a normal girl battling my way through life with anxiety sitting on my shoulder, I want to enjoy life, should be enjoying life and to the outside world probably look like I do enjoy life.
Mental health needs talking about and this is what I am going to do. From my crappy symptoms physical and mental to my fears (pretty much everything) I just want to highlight although anxiety is a very lonely place you my dears are not alone. To the person wide awake at 3am crippled with anxiety convinced they are going to die-me too!
You are not alone.